the weekend was completely occupied by dance and lots of eating and waiting time in betweens.

super demoralized for this particular item. not difficult to guess. i really had a change in attitude but then it didn’t exactly pay off. i will be respectful.

just finished the 2250 words essay, did it in a total of 7 hours i think. guess it’s not bad. quite proud of it and hopefully my efforts will be reflected on the grade i get.

dance again tonight.

got the tiffany bracelet already but no occasion to wear :(

watched tooth fairy it’s a cute and funny movie.

iphone to belong to me by end of next week!

many things to look forward to. plus mugging during recess week to catch up on all time lost spent on dancing instead of studying.

time to really put my focus on this semester’s aim.

finally.

pictures speak a thousand words!

if all goes well, i will be the master fastest by end of the week, slowest by end of month!

OMG. TIME FOR THINGS TO START LOOKING BETTER! FINALLY. :D

what to do without these people!

omg super <3

al ameen is awesome. anyhow order a dish and you can bet it’ll turn out good. supper time is the most awesome time of the day. beware the tummy though! :/

okay finally meeting the bf tmr. finally man.

goodnight. 10am to 6pm lessons, seeyou.

the first step.

no time to update. life’s been rough these days.

but amidst the tough week, I’ve good news. I’m really happy, even though i actually expected it.

it’s my first step towards my big dream, towards how i envision my future to be.- built by my very own hands.

today i got home and saw the large envelope lying on my table and one can’t blame me if i say i really do feel a teeny weeny bit accomplished to have reached where i am (even though it’s still very small compared to what I’ll achieve in the future). felt so thankful to God when I opened the envelope and see the letter for myself.

it’s things like these and DL which make me shed tears of joy. joy that I’ve arrived somewhere/achieved something.

that feeling is awesome. crying & jumping like a mad woman, because u know that your own hard work has paid off and you have been recognized.

i didn’t/don’t have things easy. i work for what i want since i was in primary school. always knowing very well what my goals are and putting in effort to achieve them.

we go through many moments in life, many are happy and memorable but..

CRYING FROM JOY OF ACHIEVING SOMETHING IS REALLY THE HIGHEST FORM OF HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD FOR ME, HONESTLY.

i remember my very first brush with such joy was when the Fairfield band got the Gold medal for SYF Central Judging. we cried and jumped and gave thanks.

then it was O levels.

I could have done better for A levels but I cried because I was thankful to God for giving me what I’ve prayed for.

Then comes university where I screwed up so badly and couldn’t forgive myself for such lousy standards.

As I grow up, things become tougher and I have to work harder.

I got my breakthrough results after the failure.

Plus next two semesters of achievement.

They all arise from lots and lots of hard work, discipline and tenacity. These are what make the moments special. When you truly reap what you sow.

The more sweat you put in, the more precious the moment of achievement is.

i hope more of such episodes will come.

- Getting my first promotion

- Earning my first $10,000

- Looking at the first million in my bank account (!!!)

- Buying my first car (!)

- Buying my first home (!)

- Having my first kid (maybe)

and many moreeee.

Now that I think about it, I am rather for a career-minded lifestyle instead of a family one. I’m skeptical about ‘forever’ and ‘love’. they don’t exist. another half only pulls you down if he/she doesn’t share the same dreams or have the same capability.

i am ready to take on those exciting months after this semester ends! :)

can’t believe how much i’m neglecting this space!

life’s been busy busy busy. school, dance, supper, sleep.

i barely have time to meet the bf and it’s beginning to sadden me :(

dance is taking up so much of my energy and time i’ve no idea what i spend my free time doing- probably stoning and resting to restore my energy, sign of aging.

assignment submissions are due this coming week and i only finished one. this is the huge disadvantage of not having midterms. also the change in the university direction towards more presentations and projects instead of pure academics. ranking’s coming i guess.

fun time of the day always lies in suppers with crazy people

new al ameen stall!

mixed fish ‘plater’ haha

the food’s awesome! try the beef kway teow. don’t eat the same thing too many times though, tend to get sick of it.

went to danzpeople on friday (if only we’re still having holidays i won’t mind going more often)

on the way back home, 3 people in 2 seats. my girls are slim slim :P

i’m super sleepy i’ve no idea why. another stressful packed week starts again.

everything went well and i definitely enjoyed the process. regardless of the outcome, i gained a good experience! :)

i have so much schoolwork to do- assignments to hand in, all with high weightage, webcasts to watch, tutorials to prepare for, textbooks to buy.etc.

omg i need to sit down and do work but procrastinating is not helping! :(

dancing does not help either, i don’t wanna dance anymore. i come to school to study and do well, not dance and get taken over by ill discipline and fun. sigh.

i need to recover and regain my health.

vulnerability- hate it.

hi, i haven’t been blogging cos of extreme busi-ness! :(

haven’t been studying at all, dance dance dance. argh, i enjoy it but i feel so guilty and it’s seriously eating away my health and my time!

anyway some pictures:

:)

went ramen 10 with the girls after practice on sunday. collen is back already yayy :)

i woke up in the middle of the night yesterday cos my throat is inflammed again! ARGH. so damn uncomfortable. plus wednesday is soo damn important to me i cannot afford to be sick. the medicine from uhc is obviously useless argh. i went to see my family doctor and found out that they changed ownership already :( the fees are so damn expensive and the medicine make me really drowsy and sleepy. been doing research the whole of today and i produced a 10 over pages well formatted document! more to prepare tmr.

i need to start doing my assignments and study after this wednesday. i can’t stand spending so much time on dance anymore.

pray that i recover soon.

i <3 my bf :)

i’m exhausted from 6 hours of dance. omg.

i hate how the law of diminishing returns set in on me during dance rehearsals. i hate it!

anyway i need 4.9 every semester from now on. can  imagine?! plus each level 4 mod carries 5MCs. even if i get A A A A- in a semester in yr 4, i will only get 4.85.

what i want seems almost impossible. unless i take lame level 1 or 2 modules.

okay i need to stop dancing and focus on my studies REAL SOON.

I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT.

I’M SMART AND POWERFUL AND DRIVEN!!!!

(okay maybe not at this moment cos i have 3 webcasts not watched DAMMIT)

on a side note, i can’t believe how fast it is! collen is coming back! to study with me, to buy popiah and bbt with me, to dance and go home tgt or cab with me, to go jp with me when i’m bored.etc :)

okay goodnight! :)

thankful.

This is the first open door.

I am thankful and glad. I will have to put in a lot of effort and it’s in how much I really want it.

This is only just the beginning.

The Spy Next Door is a really good movie!!!!!!!

The action scenes are nice, the kids are sooo cute, the lines are humorous.etc

It’s a really good and light-hearted movie. Watch it! :)

happy wkends :)

today was the most fruitful day of lessons since school started :)

went for metrics class- killer metrics module. the prof was going a bit fast and i was really trying to process the materials really hard. gotta get the textbook and read through again :/

next was ops mgt class. i’m taking this module alone! :( so if any of you are taking please call me! heh. today’s lect was rather commonsense didn’t learn anything much.

met a textbook seller, got the ops tb for only $17! haha she said i should be able to ace it since most of the students taking it are yr 1s! hopefully! :)

thereafter, i went for kel’s social psych class!

it was interesting! esp the vids and some of the facts and examples given! it’s a level 3 module yet it’s so effortlessly easy to understand! omg, so unlike econs modules. but the prob with such easy to understand modules is that after awhile you’re no longer paying attn cos you think you can understand it by yourself. unlike econs where u know that u’ll just die if u don’t give FULL attn in that full 1hr 45min.

makes me think i don’t mind staying longer in school just to study something interesting and more effortless than econs. :)

i haven’t totally given up the DDP thought. if the school fees are not so ridiculously steep, i really wanna stay just one more semester to accomplish a second degree.

mm. weekend= tuition= fulfillment from imparting knowledge to the young ones

weekend also = dance= fun and laughter with the favorite dancers :)

enjoy yours. <3